Day One n The Phone Call

I got here to North Carolina as u no and my friend was already waiting for me at the station. my friend had to go into work but i was able to tag along. this is going to be interesting lol. had a fun time hanging out with him and everyone he works with. They got off early for some beach bash thing. We go get ready all decide to take a shot before we go and buy some beer and head out. we didnt go to the beach bash but were across from them we went to the beach side. y did i not take a picture of this. the water looks completely different out here. the sand is super soft nothing like cali sand and the water is not salty an nasty like cali. but i will still always like Cali beaches. Great day so far.

..... as the day goes on the faster im tired.... this time difference really messes u up i tell u.......

the phone call....

i got a phone call today from my brother in texas, but it wasnt a happy or good phone call at all it was an angry one. hes mad that i made this decision and he hung up on me. i tried calling back but he wouldnt answer. My heart crushed and just fell to tiny pieces and i broke down for the first time that i been out here. How do i explain to a 15 year old what i am going threw? How do i explain to anyone the exact feeling that i have or going threw with them being able to say ok and understand. you cant. no one will ever truly no what u feel or are going threw if they havent lived it themselves in ur shoes. i just want my brothers to no that i love them both more then anything in this world along with everyone else in my family. this decision isnt to never see them again cause i will, its not to pull away from them or anything like that. its to find myself, to find my happiness, to do the things i told myself i want to do but couldnt.