I had this horrible dream last night i dreamed of the day my tia past away only to wake and remember that that was a true dream and it happened 8 years ago today. There isn't a day that goes by that i dont think of her or wish that she was still here. There not a day that goes by that i wonder if she's proud of me or disappointed in the person that i am now. I wish she was here more then ever and sometimes im selfish and ask god why he took her away from me i felt like i lost myself when she went, and there are moments that i demand to have her back. But i no that she is still with me, shes no longer in pain and in a better place looking and watching over me. I wish she was still here sometimes i feel like i need her more now then ever. I thought that as the years pass on id be able to get it together and accept her death but i can't. I miss her so but i no she is with me.
