Day One n The Phone Call

I got here to North Carolina as u no and my friend was already waiting for me at the station. my friend had to go into work but i was able to tag along. this is going to be interesting lol. had a fun time hanging out with him and everyone he works with. They got off early for some beach bash thing. We go get ready all decide to take a shot before we go and buy some beer and head out. we didnt go to the beach bash but were across from them we went to the beach side. y did i not take a picture of this. the water looks completely different out here. the sand is super soft nothing like cali sand and the water is not salty an nasty like cali. but i will still always like Cali beaches. Great day so far.

..... as the day goes on the faster im tired.... this time difference really messes u up i tell u.......

the phone call....

i got a phone call today from my brother in texas, but it wasnt a happy or good phone call at all it was an angry one. hes mad that i made this decision and he hung up on me. i tried calling back but he wouldnt answer. My heart crushed and just fell to tiny pieces and i broke down for the first time that i been out here. How do i explain to a 15 year old what i am going threw? How do i explain to anyone the exact feeling that i have or going threw with them being able to say ok and understand. you cant. no one will ever truly no what u feel or are going threw if they havent lived it themselves in ur shoes. i just want my brothers to no that i love them both more then anything in this world along with everyone else in my family. this decision isnt to never see them again cause i will, its not to pull away from them or anything like that. its to find myself, to find my happiness, to do the things i told myself i want to do but couldnt.

D.C.,Richmond Virginia,...finally Jacksonville, North Carolina.

Got on the greyhound to North Carolina. on the way i hit d.c. and virginia. I had only bout a 15 lay over each time so no actual exploring there. just passing threw. i wish that i had a camera to be able to take pictures of the 24 hours. instead i got my phone that doesnt have a flash. but hey its better then nothing right. it be cool if we were able to produce a video in our heads and bring it out to show the world how beautiful the world is. i got to North Carolina bout 8:50 am.

Time for a new Destination!

its 6pm i think its time to leave baltimore! where shall i go next? haha keep posted and u shall see. i am so enjoying this. i am safe everyone i love u all. hugs and kisses to my family.
p.s. yes im eating and sleeping good and all that stuff in case yall wondering.

Baltimore

yes i am in baltimore chillen with the friends out here. i fell asleep in the car ride... this time difference is messing me up and i feel like time is flying by me. ahh i woke up and wow i feel like i just stepped into a movie set. am i dreaming? nope the places look wow amazing to me. the apartment or houses whatever these are are pretty cool too. passed by the Ravens stadium.. some of the tunnels go underwater haha so cool. can u tell i never really left california haha i feel like im in another world.

Atlantic City

i am in atlantic city ladies and gents. stayin at the ramada. sleep time!

sometime at night- hitting the casino lets see how much 20 bucks gets me!

results- $20 = 60  whoo whoo this place is like a mini vegas haha. love it.

Destination Philadelphia

omg i cant believe i am actually here. its 8 am in the morning im starving!!!!!!! waiting for my friend to pick me up.

ten- its bout time she gets here! blah. humm where should i stay?

Where in the world is Carolina San Diego?!

dont ask me what i have done. i have no clue. don't ask me my plans cause i have no clue. How am i doing this? i have no clue either. i have set myself on a journey my destination .... happiness.

As we speak i am on a plane. where am i go...philadelphia. y? no clue i just had to get out of cali and what popped n my head was philadelphia. how i got the money, great friends...one way ticket to philadelphia. im sorry i didnt tell anyone and just did it. im bein a lil selfish here i no but im trying to find myself again. i have packed one bag and one bag only of clothes wheres the rest of my stuff i gave it away . y? how else was i going to bring it with me it had to go somewhere. sounds insane right but it feels so good and i feel so free.

im nervous, excited and the further i get the more stress disappears. maybe this is exactly what i need. This was ment to happen. Everything in life happens for a reason. we also have two choices with different outcomes. this is the path i decided to go. I only wish i would have hugged everyone in the family before i did and let them all no that im fine and that this is something i truely want to do. im doing it! ha i kind thinking im crazy!

on a plane... time for a beer an sleep threw the flight.